SchOOl is so Gay

i really hate skool!!!i can not wait to get out so i can see Shawn!!!lol....omg, i am so crushin on him!!lol....i really need to stop, well actually no i don't , but im really happy right now, b/c i found out that Shawn told Casey that he likes me, o wait, you dont kno the story behind Shawn!! well last night me and Casey went with her friend tim to his friend's Do-Rag's house, which is Shawn....lol, but neway, we were drinking and shit and we ended up making out and shit, but he is so sweet, the whole time in the car he kept asking me if i was okay and he kept kissing me on my forehead and shit, and it was so cute, and im waiting for skool to be over so i can go see him!! lol...but im gonna go, i'll tell u how my night went later!!!

Tired as Hell

I'm pretty tired right now.......i slept over my best friend Emma's house last night, and it was fun as hell, we stayed up and watched so many movies, but right now i am running on a low battery!! lol......but, o well, i'm pretty damn bored right now too!! lol....but im gonna go for now, ill give yinz an update tomorrow!!

Mountain ranges

Morning red bathed ridges

Stab up at the trembling blue horizon

Grey slides lazily off rooftops

Lands on the incandescent ground and dies

A flock of little men touch down on the thin surface of porchlight

Dawn's footsoldiers return to march the twilight across our faces

Skylights ignite and explode

Scattering shards of april around the room

No one even lives here

We're too busy crashin our cars every morning in the same house

Paving the same roads

Unwilling to walk them

And even when we extend ourselves, its only to be included

In a moment that stands still

And so often we don't struggle to improve conditions

We struggle for the right to say "We improved conditions"

And so often we form communities

Only to use them as exclusionary devices

And we forget that somewhere man is beside himself with grief

And somewhere people are calling for teachers

And no one's answering

Somewhere a man stands, walks across the room, and breaks his nose against the door

And somewhere these people are keeping records

And writing a book

For now we can call it "The Book About the Basic Flaw

Or "The Book About the Letter A"

Or "Any Title That a Book About a Man That No One Cares About Might Have"

And as we turn the pages we call out the sounds of nothing

The sounds of a vanishing alphabet

Standing here waiting

WoW.....yesterday was pretty damn fun!! lol.....well I went out wit casey, Jenna, and Casey's boyfriend.....we went to the mall and had a great time, i even met sum pretty hott guys! lol....but newayz...we were leaving the mall and Corey realized that he left his lights on, so his battery was dead!!! we had to call his mom and evrything!! it was pretty funny.....lol.....well, at the moment i'm getting my stuff together to go over Emma's house.....so, i'm gonna go now....i'll give u an update tomorrow!!!

Don't you think

I know what you're doing

You're coming through the door with a smile

And all the times I tried to forgive you

Well that was just another surprise

I've been waiting for to comeS

o a brand new life awaits

Yeah a brand new life

Live a new life

And I'm strong like this

Live a new life

And I can't forgive

Live a new life

And I'm strong like this

Happy as can be

As I ever could be

Nothing you can say that will help you

Finally I made up my mind

Found a track away from the circle

I've been waiting for to come

So a brand new life awaits

Yeah a brand new life

Well I was down under the ice and I could never get up

Yeah I was down so fucking deep but I never would give up

((No Fun at All--- "Away From the Circle"))

I Love RYAN KEY 

Welcome

Hey, everyone, welcome to my Blog!! lol....i dont really have much to say right now. Well i guess that i basically made this, b/c right now so much shit is going on in my life and i can not handle all of it, so much stuff is happening at once and it just sucks. Well i guess i'll tell you about some of the stuff that's going on.
1. i might be going bak to Rehab, it's a small possibility, but it's still there.
2. I have to get a new Psychologist
3. I have to go to Family Counseling
4. I have to be put in Outpatient
5. I have 30 days to bring up my Grades, and my grades are horrible
6. My great grandma is about to die
7. My Aunt might have cancer
8. My best friend Tony has been in a coma for 3 weeks and he's still not out of it
9. My ex-boyfriend is starting major shit and he's trying to get all of his friends to hate me and Clarice.

so yeah, at the moment, my life sucks, hopefully this will change. But I got to go right, i'll leave you with a lil song though.........

Cuz its the last time

I ever want to see you

It's the last time

I ever want to hear you

It's the last time

I'm getting out of this for good

And it's the last time

If at all you taught me anything

You taught me pain and hurt

Now can you tell me

Do you ever feel guilt

Hidden pain that you built Inside of your heart

Cuz its the last time

I ever want to see you

It's the last time

I ever want to hear you

It's the last time

I'm getting out of this for good

And it's the last time

When I think all the thoughts come to my head

Of the last words that you said

They're stuck inside of me

Then I say this wont happen to me again

Three months later you're my friend

And its happening again

Go

I will not cry

Alone as I lie

I said what about our past

You said 'stick it up your ass'

She shut the door with those words said

Were you thinking of me

Last time you were in bed yeah

It's the last time

It's the last time

Cuz its the last time

I ever want to see you

It's the last time

I ever want to hear you

It's the last time

I'm getting out of this for good

And it's the last time

((MesT:: "last Time"))